In her new memoir, Inferno, Catherine Cho describes her experience of postpartum psychosis following her first pregnancy.
"I go back to my truths. I am Catherine. I am married to James. I have a son.
Counting my footsteps makes me feel reassured. Numbers are certain; they hold a linear logic. It occurs to me that no matter how many steps I take, I will remain constant, in this place.
I try to remember, but I can only recollect moments. I remember a baby. The curl of a small fist. The feel of a breath against my arm."
She shares a longer excerpt on Refinery29, which can be read here